
COLLATING BRIDGES BETWEEN TWO WORLDS:
THE IMPERIOUS BEETLE BUGS,
AND THE PAWNED BUTTERFLIES
Counting The Time Backwards
War:
the start of struggle,
the end of life
Shut The Window
Before You Leave
I sit numb in my own ruins.
I cover myself with the scarf of grief
and the sky complains.
I don't get drunk on poetry as I used to.
Betrayal does not hurt anymore
nor does the good promise bring joy.
The desert has swallowed the hands
that danced through the armies of frost
and the lilac’s perfume swirled in the wind.
The spring of my youth is pronounced dead.
I no longer cry over the fine lines on my forehead
for the dust of trouble has taken the glow on my face
and the mist of exile the shine from my shoes.
July 24, 2024 – 8:51pm
Church ST, Wellington
Aotearoa, New Zealand
A.S Haidari
Restless Flight
​Let's fly away like restless birds,
Invite the horizon to a feast of mint.
Let's become like butterflies
yearning for the season reunification,
and grow accustomed
to the moonlight of lonely nights.
A.S Haidari
The Bewildered Me
The wounds beneath flesh,
are not mere garments
to cast off from my body.
They are not threads
to weave into speeches–
nor are they cries
to lift from the soul's flute.
They are the veiled nights,
where the wind mourns
over the fleeting fate of leaves
as the turmoil of desolation
stumble upon the roof of my life
that my whole life shivers.
Listen,
Do you hear the heaving whisper of tears,
racing down,
down
on the desolate pages of my cheeks
with their chests expanded?
My chest is heavy with their fragrance–
I am all a meal to them
consumed three times on the Sufra:
Subh
Zuhr
Sham
in my cold coffin before I fall asleep,
on my Turbah
as I rest my head before my Rabb,
and in the absolute quietness of the night
when everything is lulled to sleep.
Don’t ask how it feels
being enslaved by my own ruins!
A.S Haidari
I Pour Love From Exile
I will meet the sun once more,
and greet the Chehel Khana stream
that still flows within my veins—
the serene clouds of Doomordah
that once held my childhood dreams,
the growth of our garden's almonds
instilling in us the breath of life.
I will come to meet
those flocks of sparrows
bringing the fragrance of wheat fields
as a gift to us,
and Dahmardah's tranquil soil
whose passion drew its fiery core
from my ancestors' green seeds.
I will come to meet the sun once more
and greet Ammi,
who kept us in the mirror of life
when the flames of war
pushed us across borders,
the end of life.
I will come with my youthfulness:
scent lingering beneath the soil,
with that vision:
thick with experiences of darkness,
with the shrubs
picked from beyond the walls of wilderness.
I will come, but
when Dahmardah's fields brim with love once more,
when that mother waiting at the windows
has her hair turned black,
eyes clear to see my aged face,
wrinkles smoothed
and smiles returned.
I will come, but
when Ammi's tears no longer race with rivers,
when her mourning ceases with the seas
and her endurance surpasses mountains.
A.S Haidari
Here I Am
Seek me out
as often as you dare to––
raise checkpoints tall as your fear,
set roadblocks wide as your doubt.
I will still harvest songs,
smuggle poems
through the door cracks,
like seeds of light!
You are blind to my roots:
I have roots in the soil there––
I am the almond blossom,
married to lands and seas.
You can't uproot me like a tulip;
I'll keep coming like the dawn,
breaking through the night's garment
thick as clouds of confusion
that cling to the roof of your mind.
My voice will echo beyond borders,
hugging Hazara children's shadows
until your foreheads
breed Hazaragi names.​
A.S Haidari
Words in Motion
The colour of our names stretched the sky –
so widespread that awakened everything,
except humans.
I cried with sea tides,
laughed with the joy of spring,
and mourned with thunders.
I am joy
I am pain
I am love.
– From The Unsent Condolences
A.S Haidari
Chasing a Splinded Moon
They did their utmost to eliminate us
and even rewarded the pigs
who took part in our genocide,
but they failed to bring us down on our knees.
A.S Haidari
HAZARA GENOCIDE
They colonized our lands
but not our souls
not our voice.
No tyrant never succeeded
to annihilate a nation
nor shall any human mother
ever give birthto such a heartless.
A.S Haidari
In Search of Life
I see,
feel nothing but fire,
the plaintive smoke
dressed upon the crispy cheeks
of yellow evening,
in the heat of dragons,
risen from the depths of hell
with decrees of genocide–
carrying swords
warmer than fire,
teeth sharper
than arrows of ruin–
swords against
the sweet summon of my Hazaragi* faith,
the reverend shade of my cheeks;
the artistic rhythms of my tongue
and the well-sown seeds
of my native roots.
A.S Haidari
Terror of Genocide
“In death,
we blossom with the flowers of light
from whence we came,
people are fully aware
and murmur
our unbeatable spirits,
pure, noble sights
of ancient archeologies,
teaching stone to speak in rhyme”
The Unsent Condolences
A.S Haidari
'The Unsent Condolences'
They turned our past back to us
until we gave up on tomorrows;
puzzled us with lies
until we ran out of questions.
A.S Haidari
WHY DID ABDUR RAHMAN MASSACRETHE HAZARA PEOPLE?
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“Because he wanted to take the rich lands of Hazara people as he did and convert the Hazara people to Sunni version of Islam.
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Because the brutal Abdur Rahman Khan set out to bring the Turkistan, Hazarajat which he called Kafiristan (lands of infidels) regions under his control”.
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Abdur Rahman Khan came and sowed the seed of hatred, colonisation, oppression and domination. It is a fundamental breach of humanity. They have reduced themselves to animals. Wahabism has taken over against Hazara people. There is no tolerance and inclusion. Therefore, there is no peace because it is only for one tribe with one religious’ beliefs.
A.S Haidari
Current Situation
Slavery,
Oppression,
Colonisation,
Barbarism,
and Genocide of language,
culture, identity are still well
and alive against the Hazara people in Afghanistan
A.S Haidari